Chasing the New Normal
Transparent Moment: Today is the day that my Dad transitioned from this side. Seventeen years ago. Some days I’m full of joy and other days that grief just creeps in and I feel empty, lost, and confused. I felt that the past two weeks. I shared before it’s like the grief before the grief. I […]
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Something about death that has a numbing factor. It’s like I’m helpless. After Mom’s transition, some things just don’t feel the same. The way I respond to death. The knowing that comes before it happens. The grief before the grief. I feel it. Heavy. Sometimes, I feel if I don’t think about it, the reality […]
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It has been one year and some months since my Mother transitioned, and I feel like I’m entering a new level of grief. It’s almost as if it happened yesterday and I’m at that (almost) 3 month mark where I was a year ago. The place after the initial shock wore off and reality set […]
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It was the first time that I attended a funeral and repast where I felt empty. Maybe because this one hit home. And maybe because the last time it hit this close (with Daddy), I had my Mom’s love and presence to surround me. Everyone seemed to be in a rush and ready to leave […]
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My family is very small. My only sibling lives thousands of miles away. In my early 20’s, I watched my Father go through rounds of chemo, radiation therapy, and take his last breath right before my eyes. I also watched my Mother and best friend bounce back countless times like a warrior. But months ago, I […]
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Twice a year I participate in 21 Days of Prayer with my tribe. But this time around, I had to approach my prayers differently. There was a season where I prayed for healing (on this side) for my Mom, but God had another plan. Right now I’m in a broken place and my hope is […]
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Losing a parent, child, or someone you love is life-changing, especially those who have gone through this life journey with you. Losing someone unexpectedly will knock the wind right out of you. It’s numbing. I was talking to a friend about life…and loss. He started talking about people who battle addiction and their desire to […]
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I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve tried to make sense of this “life” thing, but I just can’t. The reality is, I probably never will. I keep having to remind myself that God’s ways are higher than mine, his understanding is unsearchable. All I can do is pray. Pray for peace, pray for […]
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When I was growing up I would hear the old folk say, “just keep living” and “you’ll understand it better by-and-by”. Then life happened. My beautiful Mother…my best friend. She taught me everything that I know, but she never prepared me for the heartbreak that is living life without her. It still feels like a […]
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