Chasing the New Normal
Something about death that has a numbing factor. It’s like I’m helpless. After Mom’s transition, some things just don’t feel the same. The way I respond to death. The knowing that comes before it happens. The grief before the grief. I feel it. Heavy. Sometimes, I feel if I don’t think about it, the reality […]
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The journey of grief is so unpredictable, because you never know when it will hit you. Then just like that… It’s easy for people to say they will be there for you, but when you need them most, they aren’t there. Or…they don’t know how to be. I don’t think people get it until it […]
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I should have known something was wrong, because my Godfather never calls me in the middle of the day, especially while I’m at work. He tried his best not to sound hurt, sad, and broken. I didn’t even want to know, but I needed to know. That’s when he shared with me that his only […]
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It’s hard to believe that two years ago on Mother’s Day, out of all days, my life changed forever. I watched my beautiful Mother walk down the steps to greet me at the door (like she always did) of the home I grew up in, before heading to church. She even had on her best, […]
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It has been one year and some months since my Mother transitioned, and I feel like I’m entering a new level of grief. It’s almost as if it happened yesterday and I’m at that (almost) 3 month mark where I was a year ago. The place after the initial shock wore off and reality set […]
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I’ll admit—I’ve gone into this season with intentional busyness. Some of which was already planned, and the rest was just to keep my mind off the reality that this Thanksgiving holiday would be different from any other. I still give Mama praises for teaching me how to make her famous Dressing…which is hands down THE […]
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It was the first time that I attended a funeral and repast where I felt empty. Maybe because this one hit home. And maybe because the last time it hit this close (with Daddy), I had my Mom’s love and presence to surround me. Everyone seemed to be in a rush and ready to leave […]
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My family is very small. My only sibling lives thousands of miles away. In my early 20’s, I watched my Father go through rounds of chemo, radiation therapy, and take his last breath right before my eyes. I also watched my Mother and best friend bounce back countless times like a warrior. But months ago, I […]
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Twice a year I participate in 21 Days of Prayer with my tribe. But this time around, I had to approach my prayers differently. There was a season where I prayed for healing (on this side) for my Mom, but God had another plan. Right now I’m in a broken place and my hope is […]
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Losing a parent, child, or someone you love is life-changing, especially those who have gone through this life journey with you. Losing someone unexpectedly will knock the wind right out of you. It’s numbing. I was talking to a friend about life…and loss. He started talking about people who battle addiction and their desire to […]
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