You Would Think It Would Get Easier

I should have known something was wrong, because my Godfather never calls me in the middle of the day, especially while I’m at work. He tried his best not to sound hurt, sad, and broken. I didn’t even want to know, but I needed to know. That’s when he shared with me that his only […]

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You Just Learn How To Manage

It’s hard to believe that two years ago on Mother’s Day, out of all days, my life changed forever. I watched my beautiful Mother walk down the steps to greet me at the door (like she always did) of the home I grew up in, before heading to church. She even had on her best, […]

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A New Level Of Grief

It has been one year and some months since my Mother transitioned, and I feel like I’m entering a new level of grief. It’s almost as if it happened yesterday and I’m at that (almost) 3 month mark where I was a year ago. The place after the initial shock wore off and reality set […]

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This One Is For Us

I’ll admit…I’ve gone into this season with intentional busyness. Some of which was already planned, and the rest was just to keep my mind off the reality that this Thanksgiving holiday would be different from any other. I still give Mama praises for teaching me how to make her famous Dressing…which is hands down THE […]

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After the Music Stops, Life Keeps Going

It was the first time that I attended a funeral and repast where I felt empty. Maybe because this one hit home. And maybe because the last time it hit this close (with Daddy), I had my Mom’s love and presence to surround me. Everyone seemed to be in a rush and ready to leave […]

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When Your Prayers Are Not Answered

I went from being on a high in my faith while serving at a Freedom Conference to the lowest low I’ve ever experienced in my entire life. I prayed and BELIEVED God for a miracle. I’m talking about…on my knees, on my face…pleading with God. The kind of prayers you shout out to the Lord […]

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“I Remember Mama In A Happy Way”

I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve tried to make sense of this “life” thing, but I just can’t. The reality is, I probably never will. I keep having to remind myself that God’s ways are higher than mine, his understanding is unsearchable. All I can do is pray. Pray for peace, pray for […]

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Just Keep Living

When I was growing up I would hear the old folk say, “just keep living” and “you’ll understand it better by-and-by”. Then life happened. My beautiful Mother…my best friend. She taught me everything that I know, but she never prepared me for the heartbreak that is living life without her. It still feels like a […]

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